Just For You

Scroll all the way to the bottom and read from the bottom up. It’s like a timeline sort of thing, I guess. Just for you.

I want to take this time to say I’m sorry.

And I can’t explain just how sorry I really am. That would take a lifetime to show you, and an infinite script to write about.

However, instead of saying how sorry I am, how big of a dick, a douche, an ass hole, an idiot I was, why don’t I just say what’s important?

Well, I want you to know that I haven’t been who I want to be, or more likely who I willbe. Who I will be is your boyfriend. Not the guy I have been in the past, but the guy I will be in the present, and in the future.

I want to be the guy who will be there for you. I want to be the guy you wake up, fall asleep, and daydream about with a smile on your face. How will I do that?

…I will gain your trust. I don’t care how long it takes, or how you treat me. All I want, is that you trust me. I want you to not even have a worry about me in any situation.

No matter what, I want you to trust me. Trust is what a relationship starts with… And I don’t want ours to end. We were the most amazing thing. We were what people would “AW” about, and what made others smile. We gave others hope.

I cannot live without you. You complete me. I am nothing without you. But most of all, I needyou.

All the memories,the good times, the moments that made us “mush,”every single inside joke, occasion, tradition, the long, late nightconversations, aboutnothing that made us laugh.They made us smile, and we both loved them so so much. All those little things to tease each other, and the joking fights we’d have that made your mom laugh. She said we were cute… We were. We were very cute. 

I want those back. I want us BACK. I will do ANYTHINGto get us back, and I willnever give up. Although I have made many mistakes, that won’t happen ever again. I need you, and I need us. We need us.

If any problems stand in our way, who cares? Fuck em. We’ll get through it together. MadlyInLove, NoMatterWhat, ForeverAndAlways. I had always said that, and I still do. I still believe in us. I believe we can make this work. I know we can make this work. We both have to try.

Although it may take a long, long time to settle, I don’t care. I will do anything…for your love. Even if it takes a whole lifetime, it’s worth it.

We are worth it.

I Promise to be the boyfriend you dream of.

Just give me one last chance. That’s all I ask for. One last chance, and I will make things right.

I love you, NoMatterWhat, ForeverAndAlways.

I promise. 

xoxo,

-Keyan F.

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Leanne, i know i should be texting you first and at every opportunity i get, but im afraid ill get clingy and youll just get even more mad at me… And i feel as if when you hear things from me, you dont feel the same as when you hear it from others… I feel like you just shut me down when i talk to you, but when others do its not as bad… But im sorry.
I did flunk my math test, because it was a new unit and i didnt pay attention once this week. It was only worth like 10% thi so its ok but i did ask my teacher and hes like none of these are right…
Besides that, what i did for you… I tried my hardest. I appologised. I changed. I didnt retaliate. I stayed calm. I took everything in and still moved on. I didnt give up. I wont give up.
Im giving this every little ounce of strength i have. Im understanding everything i havent in the past; ive realized every little detail. Im changing to become a better boyfriend…. Your boyfriend. The boyfriend youd want in a guy. The boyfriend i want to be for you. If sending you a paragraph that will take me 1 hour to write every night is what it takes, i will do that every single day for 365 days until i win you back. I wont give up. If the love is worth it, dont give up. And i wont give up because our love is worth it. Its more than worth it. Way more.
Leanne, i honestly want you to believe that ive changed. I have. Im not that same guy. And i want you to realize that im doing this for you; for us. So we can start new, start fresh. I love everything about you, and about us. Being a fatass couple, falling asleep together because we’d be watching family channel and an episode we’ve seen 18 times is on, the times we would make fun of each other for jokes just to see the other laugh. We would make fun of each others phones. Wonderland, riding behemoth 9 times in one day just to set a record, and pretty much raping each other when the pictures about to be taken. Going to macs, buying a shitload of food and heading out laughing because we couldnt understand the guy who works there. Taking random photos at 10 pm in the middle of the road. The sudden panic when we would hear footsteps coming down the stairs. Making a cake… That was fun, can’t deny. Sitting there doing nothing but just teasing each other at the same time. Making each other smile. You making me cry tears of joy then you think you did something wrong… Making a mess at a sushi place while being the loudest couple there. Getting lost in the dark, or even at day. Waking up at 7 am on a sunday to watch stupid harry potter, but sharing a seat because we cant stand to be so far away from eachother. Then spending a complete 12 hours together. Taking screenshots of the cutest texts ever.
Every single memory…
The first time i saw you; it was like love at first sight. Im glad i lifted your name tag just to see who id be searching up on facebook the next day!
Every single day with you has been the best time of my life. Each day would be an adventure; something new. We were so different than the other couples. What we had, no other couple did. No other couple will ever have that. We were weird and crazy together, but thats what made us… Us.
Neither one of us will ever have that with any other guy or girl, ever again. And i dont want to lose that. I want to be with you until i die. And even longer if possible.
Leanne, i love you. And im saying that even more confident and stronger than ever.
I dont want to lose you, and i wont let it happen. No matter how fast you run, i’ll catch up and slowly catch you. And when i do catch you, i wont EVER let go. I will be holding you, and you only.
You complete me. You make me whole.
Leanne, i love you. More now, than ever. NMW FAA. I love you more than any love can ever express. 
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